Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Stress+MS= :(

We thought we were done with relapses for a bit, but we are learning that stress may truly be one of Aaron's triggers. Aaron has been studying nonstop for about 4 weeks now, trying to get his dissertation done before April. He has been going everyday from 5am-10pm. He gets up works all day then studies all night. He doesn't come home until 8 or 9 and never takes breaks. The only day he doesn't work the whole day is Sunday. Thank goodness for 9:00  church so he can take it easy Sunday afternoons. But, about 2 weeks ago I think the stress really started to get him. We had some horrible news about his big brother Nate. Nate was diagnosed with a brain tumor and is going to be undergoing brain surgery in a few weeks. This absolutely devastated Aaron. Especially because Nate had to have extra tests done because they wanted to rule out MS since Aaron has it. The test were brutal and took a tool on poor Nate. (Of course Nate and his wife are handling it so well and our examples to us of faith over fear!) Along with this, Aaron's just got so much on his is plate. We've had some other struggles too, that I'm sure help add stress to his life. I think with all of this his body is getting worn out, run down and allowing his defenses to go down. With that, he is starting to relapse again. About a week ago he started to feel dizzy. Almost to the point he always feels he is on a boat. Then he starts to get headaches and is exhausted and starting Saturday he began to go numb on his left side. We called the dr today and are waiting to hear what next. It's the worst time for this to happen. This could definitely push graduation back and keep him for his goal, which is going to stress him more. It's Days like these I just want to cry and curse MS! I wish I was the one who had it or that there was a way I could keep Aaron from struggling with this. But I can't! I wish I could help with his dissertation. I wish I could ease his burdens and take the stresses of life away. But I can't do that either. All I can do is trust that God truly has a plan for Aaron, for us and our family. I have to believe and trust as long as we are doing all we can The Lord will do his part. Just send some prayers Aaron's way and his brother Nate's way. We need all we can get right now!